Why Am I Even Doing This?

Ahhh**
Like right now I am so not in the mood to blog.

I forseriously do not know why.

But I am doing it anyway right?

So what's new?

Well for one I haven't touched the computer in a few days because of me being stupid and forgetting to check and see if the WiFi switch was on.

So yea...I have quite alot to say but I'll just mention the things that are swimming around in my head right now.

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So what comes to mind first?

Oh...ok...

I will finally be meeting Mureen's Boyfriend's

17-year-old-German Brother who goes to bording school in England.

Tomorrow or the next day.

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We all took family photos on Saturday.

Sean was the photographer.

Wasn't too bad actually.

That night al the adults went out and Amy and I baby-sat.

We totally forgot that Titanic came on that night!!

BEST MOVIE EVER!!

I have seen it way way like a lot of times.



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Yesterday I want to church,

Saw Green.

I didnt see Blue ):

Dunno why but I was kinda bummed out.

Then when we were pulling out of the parking lot I saw him.

I'm not obsessed ok, really,

just letting you all know he was there.

You know the white-haired lady that we all saw at awards night?

The one we think is his mom...

well, whoever she is she smiled at me (:

haha...i don't know why that needeed to be mentioned.

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Today I went to Noeline's family's pool party.

I was so dreading.

Did Not Want To Go At All.

But I did.

OMG!!! It was FUNNNN!!

haha....didn't swim but still!!

I pushed Aunty A in 3 times!!

I really did like it.

I "wetted' Amy and she totally snapped at me.

Thae Daddy came up and was like respect her wish not to get wet.

And I was like People got me all wer when I told them not to.

He kinda ignored me and fired at Amy.

Don't be so anti-social and vain!!!

hahaha...it was Funny!

Afterwards the 5 of us went to Subang Parrade.

I picked out a

-PHONE-

-CAMRA-

And I bought New Moon.

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Updated?

OK...Good

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O yea...one more thing.

I was planning for Sayf to stay at my house one of these nights.

Saby, you in?

I'll tell you the deats or ask Sayf.

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Love You Guys!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

xoxo ashley:)

Quickie

Ok so I was listening to this song and.... dunno why.... i was reminded of Sayf.

haha...you see you may think that your days are always so boring and all but actually you never know what will happen.

yea...anyway

SEIZE THE DAY-

everyone.

"Best Day Of My Life"

Woke up around a half past ten

Can’t believe that I’m late again

Put down about a quart of caffine

To start my pulse and then

I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,

Just the same old same

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It goes to show

You never know

When everything’s about to change

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Just another day

Started out like any other

Just another girl who took my breath away

Then she turned around

She took me down

Just another day that I ....

Had the best day of my life

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Can’t say exactly what it was

She’s not the usual type

She wore a cowboy hat

With her red Prada boots

And a Gwen Stefani smile

Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when

She wrote her number on my hand

Then she was gone,

But from now on

I’m gonna be a different man

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Just another day

Started out like any other

Just another girl who took my breath away

-

Then she turned around

She took me down

Just another day that I ...

Had the best day of my life

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I guess it goes to show

You never really know

When everything’s about to change

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Just another day

Started out like any other

Just another girl who took my breath away

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Then she turned around

She took me down

Just another day that I ... Had the best day of my life [x2]

Mwaks!! LYLAS

Night!

xoxo ashley:)

More Than Expected, Less Than Deserved

Right.....So now it's like 1:55 A.M.

On the 26 of December.

I'm bummed that the best day of the year is over.

But I am DEFINITELY still in a Cheerful-Christmas Mood!

I also feel very ashamed of myself.

You see, I've been so busy running here and going there that I never took the appropriate time to appreciate the TRUE meaning of Christmas.

Never, until today that is.

And when I really thought about it I realized that, lately,

I have really been drifting away from God.

Sad isn't it?

Especially during this time.

I would blame it on distractions but it's just an excuse.

I can blame no one but myself.

Well...I'm going back to him.

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What else?

Oh...tomorrow will be the last Christmas Celebration.

And it's the one I've been dreading.

[Hungry Wolf]

*enough said*

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I just listened to the whole Metro Station Album.

You know?

The one that I bought for Amy.

Wait...Did I tell you I bought it?

Anyway, yea, I just finished it.

Only 10 songs though....

but pretty good. (:

Seventeen Forever

Kelsey

Shake It

There's this one song...

Tell Me What to Do....

I can't decide if it's annoying or pretty ok...??

But the pic does them no justice.

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I went to Aunty A's house, amongst other places, today.

I got more pressies.

Last time tomorrow.

I visited a lot of people today.

And I will upload pics soon!!

:)

And I just wanted to add:

Merry Christmas Lovelies!

(Even though it's 2:28)

I Love You Guys!

A Lot.

More than you will ever truly know.

xoxo ashley:)

A Time For Joy

Christmas, Christmas, couldn't come quicker.

And it is going away much to fast.

But I am still loving it!!

I have already opened some presents.

I'll take pics of them soon and show you.

But I'm not telling you until then!

SUSPENSE!!

But....guess what!!

Daddy is going to take me to pick out a camera!!

Cool huh?

ok I gotta go...

more Christmas Visits!!

Bye!!

xoxo ashley:)

I Have A Great Mind!! haha....

Only great minds can read this. This is weird, but interesting!
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fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it ____________________________________________
FORWARD ONLY IF YOU CAN READ IT.

xoxo ashley:)

Merry Christmas Baby!

It is currently 1:45 A.M.

I just wrapped a few last Christmas Presents!

I love Christmas man!

Right now it is now

OFFICIALLY CHRISTMAS EVE!

And It's Amy's Birthday!

My little teenage sister...

awww...

I went out with Daddy and Amy today and bought alot of food.

Yum yum yum.

Fats fats fats.

When I got home I made a Cheese Cake!

My first time!!!

I really hope it's good.

I'm just sooo EXCITED about Christmas!

I don't care what I'm doing...

nothing can bring down Christmas!

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Things New About Christmas This Year

• First Christmas in Malaysia

• A HOT Christmas

• Themed Tree..??

• First time with Isabelle!! (:
• First Christmas I will not see my family
• First Christmas without Mama....

xoxo ashley:)

Empty Smiles

So what have I been up to lately?

Nothing....Everything....

It's so busy yet so boring.

I've been spending a lot of time with

Aunty Diane and her family.

You know who that is right?

Yea, well not only them but also Aunty Audrey's family.

It's ok actually but the past few days I just feel like being anti-social.

So today is the first day since all weekend that I didnt go out with them.

Yesterday we

(Walker/Jesudasan)

Went out for Crab!!

I don't usually eat it that much but it was super good.

It was in K.L.

Haha....restaurant was called....

Mai King Fatt....

Sounds like....

Making Fart!!!

HA!HA!HA!HA!HA!!

So anyway-

I've been busy during my days and staying up all night.

Doing what?

Reading New Moon.

I finished today.

I slept at 5:21 A.M.

I really love it!

I just love the whole Twilight Sega.

I"m gonna read it again.

So that's about all of my latest news.

Except the news about Christmas!

I'll do write about that in another post.

Wanna gho chat with Sayf now!

It's been a while!

OKie Dokie!

Bye!

xoxo ashley:)

It's Happy Dance Time Baby!

*O*M*G*

Right now I am so HAPPY.

I just talked to Sayf.

She told me everything.

And then, despite everything else...

She went and asked her mom about tomorrow.

I called her back 5 min later...

And guess what her mom said!!

YES!!!!

Ahhh...

Now I am talking to her online.

I totally have tears in my eyes and it feels like

We can do anything.

I am just ecstatic!

You know I just like posted my last post like 10 min ago

and now it's like a complete 180!!

Tomorrow is so on!

And we can finally do our book!

THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD!

xoxo ashley:)

Things Go Topsey Tervy

So now I'm not really sure what's going on.

All I know is that tomorrow Amy,Celine, and I will be going to Saby's house.

I don't know what will happen from there.

And I know that Sayf will not be going.

How horrid is that?

But that's not the worst news.

Something is really wrong with Sayf, And I don't know what it is.

I called her all day but couldn't get through.

BABE...

I know that you are going through a hard time right now.

I don't know the details but I know that you are hurting.

All I want right now is to talk to you and be there for you.

I know that you wanted to go tomorrow and I know it ment alot to you,

but Don't worry.

Don't regret.

Don't hold grudges.

And remember,

Life is too short for things that won't matter in the long run.

I love you with all of my heart forever and ever

and ever and ever and ever and ever

and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever

and ever and ever.

AND EVER.

You can always count on me.

I am always here.

Cheer up ok?!

fate & faith

things happen for a reason

xoxo ashley:)

A Toast For Change

I have realized a few things suddenly.

Life is way way too short.

Why should we hold grudges?

Why have regrets?

I'm stopping it all now.

I just talked to Brenda.

About nothing really.

Just a quick hi and bye.

Ok...so I know why but I'm not going to.

It is all in the past.

I'm not the type of person who dislikes people.

I'm not the type to hold a grudge.

But I do regret sometimes.

That needs to stop to.

So from now on

What's done is done

And that is that.

Things happen for a reason.

And we cant change the past or predict the future.

So here's to being a better person.

Updates About Friday

Ok so here goes the latest news.
And there are a few new problems.
PLAN
-Now the plan is still to go to Sunway around noon.
-After that we will all come back to my house instead of Saby's but no worries there.
Although I must warn you the water pressure upstairs will be low because of some pipe thingy but not really a big deal.
PROBLEMS
-I still need to ask my dad about the whole thing.
Upside: Noeline seems fine with it.
But I'm still kinda worried.
-I'm really worried about Sayf.
I totally feel your problems man.
Not only may she not be able to go but its not really good to have all these feelings about her family bottled up inside of her.
Trust me I have been there.
I love you Babe.
-Twilight will only be playing at 11 am and 6:45 pm on Friday.
Maybe we can go there earlier for the 11am or later in the after noon for the6:45 or maybe just watch another movie.
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I'm not sure at this point. I'll tell you guys by tomorrow.
MWAKS!!

Me? Shopping?

*Bimbo Voice*

Like Oh My Gosh.

I like totally went to like the mall today..

And like..I...Went....Like Shopping!!

*haha..ok...enough already*

So yea,

I went to Pyramid today and did a lot of CHRISTMAS Shopping!!

It was actually Really Really Fun!

And you all know that I hate to shop right?

Anyway, here's the deats

(that's DETAILS of you nooobs who don't know..haha..)

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It was just Noeline and I.

We left the house around noon.

When we got to Sunway we spent like 20 minuets looking for parking.

-You know the green and red lights that indicate a free spot?-

Yea, well I was like

"We're lookin' for green."

(10 min. later)

Noeline was like

"Oh, it's so convenient how they have the colored lights to show you where to park?"

(She looks at me)

"*Laughs* Yea, I didn't know what you ment."

Haha...you may not get what I mean but it was really funny.
Ok, Moving on...

After we found parking we got down to it.

The first store we went into was Jusco.

Right when we walked in we saw this stand filled with finger nail polish.

So I decided that that would be a good present for Amy.

I bought her 4 bottles, a nail file, and nail stickers.

(But I got the stickers somewhere else later.)

While I was trying to decide which colors to get i saw the tester colors.

I found the matching ones to the colors

I was thinking of buying and started painting my nails.

Right now all of my nails are a different color!!

Hehe...

So I ended up getting....

GLITTERY PURPLE-ISH FUCHSIA,
TURQUOISE,
BLACK.

AND CLEAR.

(When I got home one of the first things Amy noticed was my nails, and she said that she liked -who would have guessed-the colors I picked! Duh I had a Cover story right! (She doesn't know that I bought it for her)

And guess who I saw while getting the nail polish?!?

Tammy, Michelle, and then Joell.

First Tammy saw me.

Then I saw both of them (Tam&Mich).

They were waiting on Joell.

Playing some type of tresure hunt game.

Dunno....

Tammy mentioned the message that I had sent her before I left the house about not being able to attent this party on Friday.

(Hahaha....I planed Amy's bash over it!!)

Anyway, when Joell got there she was with her boyfriend.

She was wearing this SUPER short skirt!

After they left Noeline was like

"Who is that Joell"

"She went to our school last year"

"What's up with her skirt?

You can like see her butt already"

"Hahahaha...I know"

"How old is she?"

"Like 17 or 18"

*then I explained what little I know about Joell*

Then we left Jusco

It was past 1 and we were getting hungry.

We decided to go and eat at The Manhattan Fish Market.

We sat in the restorant for a long time while eating-

well about an hour and a half+ .

It was like serious mother-daughter-time.

We talked about my mom.

And we talked about her dad.

And it actually was pretty cool.

After lunch we did some more shopping.

We bought this cool sparkly pink candle holder thing.

(I'm sure you know who for.)

Then we went to this toy store.

Noeline bought these huge helicopters for Zack and Jerry.

I bought Tumbling-Tower for Abby.

We were on our way to this really neat collect able-like store that Aunty Audry told us about when we passed this funky little place called the box.

It had the coolest little nick-nacks in it.

I bought flashlights for Z&J, and tatoos for Abby.

Noeline bought these totally awesome purse holding thingys.

Supposedly when you go out somwhere and there is no where to hang your bag you can

hook it on this thing and put it in the table.

They were very pretty and she ended up buying one for herself to.

She bought Amy this cell phone charm with a butterfly.

I actually picked it out to buy for Amy but decided not to get

it because I wanted to get her a CD.

Noeline needed a birthday gift for Amy so she bought it.

OkOk...I'm almost done...sorry...this is taking kinda long.

Then we went to the collector's store and we bought some stuff.

It was like these 2 garden things and an angel face clock-very pretty.

On the way there we also bought a bunch of Ben Ten stuff for the boys and

I GOT A RUBIKS CUBE!!

Next to last stop:

We went to Popular.

I wanted to look for a book or CD for Amy.

I wanted to get Metro Station but they didn't have it and I was so tired already.

I didn't know what book she would like so I decided to get her

The Pussy Cat Doll's Doll Domination.

-ok, I know that this post is getting long and boring but I really wanna tell you this:-

I saw it in the book shop.

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READ THIS BACKWARDS

MURDER FOR A JAR OF RED RUM

SAME RIGHT!!?

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Well, I like it!

OK, Last stop before heading home.

Donuts!!!

Yea, yea.

Save it.... I know.

FATSSSS!!

But I say this really Hot Dude!!

Had really light blond hair and a great smile :D

So that about wraps it up...

no need to tell you what happened with the guy...

ahhhhh!!

hahaha....

totally got you!!

DUH nothing happened.

I don't think he even saw me.

But whatever....ya know I'm not the type to regret...not much anyway.

Besides, what could I do?

Noeline was there.

And ha was with his family.

(He was like 16?)

So, anyway, I got all my shopping done except for Noeline's C.mas/B.day and Isabell.

But I really did have fun!

Downside: didn't have time to buy a phone.

Ahh..another day.

OK Guys!

That's it...

sorry it was so long.

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ps- sleepover at saby's or mine?

xoxo ashley:)

REUNION!

OK GUYS!!
SO HERE'S THE PLAN.
THE OCCASION IS A REUNION/AMY'S 13th BIRTHDAY.
I WAS THINKING THAT WE COULD MEET IN PYRAMID AROUND NOON AND THEN GO WATCH A MOVIE.
AMY WANTS TO WATCH TWILIGHT.
I HAVE TO CHECK THE MOVIE TIMES AND ALL THOUGH.
MAYBE WE CAN HAVE LUNCH IN SUNWAY TO...?
AFTER THE MOVIE AND ALL WE CAN JUST HANG OUT THERE OR WE CAN GO AND DO SOMETHING ELSE....WHATEVER....
OK,
SO AFTER PYRAMID WE CAN HAVE A TOTALLY FUN SLEEPOVER AT SABY'S HOUSE.
(THXXXX SABY!!!!!!)
WE CAN WORK ON THE SCRAP BOOK AND EVERYTHING!
:)(:)(:)(:)(:
SO WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?
PLEASE SAY YOU CAN MAKE IT!

xoxo ashley:)

Shout-out!

Hey Peeps!

I just wanted to say hey to all of my Besties!

Amy, Sayfryil, Sabrina, Celine!!

I LOVE and MISS all you guys so much!

I can't wait to see you!

xoxo ashley:)

Snow

So Guess What!?!

I just got an e-mail from my sister Christin...

She said that it snowed a little this morning!

So So So Not FAIR!!

As if I wasn't missing Mississippi enough!

I haven't seen snow in forever.

It seems that it will always snow back home right after we come back from a trip.

Really! It happened last year to.

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How long has it been since I've seen snow?

Hehe...I don't even know, but it's been a while.

One year It snowed- like when I was 6- And my mom and dad took us sleding!

It was so much fun.

We even made snow angles and everything.

Another year, when the snow was heavier, Amy, my mom, and I built a snowman.

It looked pathetic , but we all loved it.

It stayed in our front yard for 2 days after all the other snow had melted.

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I really miss my mom.

She was the type of person who would always go out of her way to make sure that we had a good time.

Can't believe she's gone.

xoxo ashley:)

Home Sweet Home

It's only been 3 days, but i already miss my family back home.
I had a pretty great time with them.

It was exactly what I needed to take my mind off things.
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I had my Granny who was loving as always.

My sisters who are all as crazy as can be.

My little cousin, Brooke, who is, despite other things, adorable.

My all-around wacky, funny, easy going cousin who has his serious moments, Hunter. He's th e best and we have so much fun together.

I saw people who I have been around for my entire life. Suppportive as always.

I like it here and I love all of the people but I still get a little home-sick sometimes.

xoxo ashley:)

Freakin' Freaky!

ok...so maybe I'm feeling up to makeing a small post now.

I really have alot to say, and I know that you guys already know and are there for me always.

I don't really want to post all about what happened right now, but trust me I will.

Now I just want to tell you guys about something really FREAKY that I remembered this morning.

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About a month ago I had this dream.

In the dream I was sitting on my bed all alone in my room.

Someone(don't remember who..maybe my dad?) came in.

He just came up to me and hugged me and I said "I miss her"

And then!! There was this flash of my mom caught it a fire somewhere!!

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Turns out in my dream...1MONTH AGO...

that my mom died in a fire.

Isn't that weird?

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Well I will be leaving for the States tomorrow at 3 P.M.

I'll come back next Sunday.

I really don't know what to do, how to react when I see my family.

I need to go pack now.

hopefull I'll come to your house later Sayf.

If not I'm for sure going to yours Celine.

TTYL.

stay optimistic!

xoxo ashley:):