Truth Be Told

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley

"Who said that the road of life was paved in gold? More like the road is paved in blades and broken glass, and everytime you fall down and get cut you learn how to get back up, slap a bandaid on it and keep on walking"

Lord, Make Me a Rainbow. I'll Shine Down With My Mother. They'll Know We're Safe With You When They Stand Under Our Colors.

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had

If I could re-live yesterday
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

xoxo ashley:)

WARNING!

So I did forget to mention one tiny detail yesterday.Last time, right? When I use to be really into blogging.. I was really L-A-M-E, LAME. I was like re-reading all of the old post and DANGGGG!! For your own good, I recomend that you dont read them. I couldnt bring myself to deleat them though. There's just too many memories, you know? Apparently I use to really loveee Twilight. Make sense. I do like in now also. It just repulses me kinda now though. There's just way too much ewwness around it now. Idk.. that probably doesnt even make sense.
Anyways, I would update this page with the happenings of my life as of late, but Im kinda busy now. I need to figure out SOMEEE TYPE of transport for futsal tmr or i cant go :( Wish me luck!!
Byeeee <3

xoxo ashley:)

Every heart without Christ is a mission field. Every heart with Christ is a missionary.

"UH! AS IF!" *bimbo* :)

Aloha :)
So I just finished finally un-privating my blog. It took about 10 seconds.
I am abt to go finish watching the movie Clueless with Amy, who is pretty clueless. Wow, that was lame. Lol. but it's the truth so I guess that makes up for the lamity. :)
I should probably go to the gym soon, but I dont really want to. I probably willl though. Idk.. We'll see how it plays out.
I kinda feel like I am talking in a majorrr monotone right now. Well, not really talking, but you get the picture. I think it's bc I am in a hurry. Amy can be kinda impatcient sometimes. In her defence though, I DO always make her wait. Sorryy Ames! So I better go now. Byeee for now!
xoxo ashley :)

Peace Up! A-Town Down!

You dudes, dudetts, people of the world..
Wuzzuppp? Ive been feeling like extremely gangstaaa the past few days. Ever since I stayed over at Celine's house this past weekend and got all dance crazyyy. YEAH! by Usher!! Haha.. Man I'm just telling you I cant stay still when I hear that song, which is a little odd bc Im not usually a hip-hopish person. Hmm. Oh and I alwayss seem to be channeling that scene from the movie Hitch when I hear the song so not only will I be getting all groovyy but I tend to do the ohsocool "screw in the light bulb" or "sprinkler" move. Oookk. errrmm, Idk why Im telling you that. Anyways, Ive been doing a lot of things lately. School all last week, IGOTTALENT on Friday, I sayed with Celine the whole weekend after that, school then Sayf's crib then futsal on Monday, bday for Josh and Sean Jesudasan yesterday, and family pic day today. Busy, busy bee. I have, unfortunately, had to be the focus of a lot of pictures lately. Something that I don't particularly enjoy. But heyy, at least Im more flexible than last time. Maybe Ill put some of the pics here. It is a little dry, huh? Then again, maybe not. Who knows? I don't. Let's just wait and see how I feel. Wow. That sounds moody. Im waiting on the other family members to arrive now so we can do the picture thing. It's 4:00. We were suppose to start at 3. Ohwell.. Life doesn't always go as planned-- That's for sure.
*Here is the part where I wanted to put some supaa gangstaa sign off. Looks like I'm not that gangstaa aftaa all tho yo yo. .. ? Ook.. Anywayy BYE!
xoxo ashley:)

Tweek, Tweek

It's almosttttt 3AM. I have TONS of things to do for Isacc's notreallyfullmoon thing. Slide show, karaoke.. Yeahh. And the karaoke is that the place has is like all oldies so I need to make like those lyric vidio things you see on Youtube. Not as easy as it sounds. Especially when you have to do like 20 of them. And I really need to do it by tmr. :/ But right now I'm taking a little break.Tweeking Amy's Facebook justtt a little :) She now: Loves the sacred art of farting, She has a new profile pic, Her bio is a bit more interesting, and she really loves artificial eyebrows made from armpit hair.
Sleepyy time peeps. Night.

xoxo ashley:)

Pain

Sometimes it comes on fast and it feels like someone has taken a hammer to my heart. Other times it's slow and torturous. Like poison, seeping slowly from one point until it touches every part of me.

Sometimes I know exactly why it's there. Others I'm not so lucky. Wonder as I may there are just too many possibilities.

Sometimes I'm thankful. Better to feel pain than to feel nothing at all. Isn't that what they say?Other times though I just wish that everything inside of me would go numb or that my brain would shut off so that I wouldn't have to deal.

Sometimes it feels like I might actually be making progress and even like I might be getting stronger. Others I feel like a coward who can't even handle her own problems. Like a poor sad self-pitying little girl.

Sometimes It feels like everything must have been my fault in the end. Others I like to think that everything plays out the way it is suppose to be.

But always, always, I feel like there is nothing at all that I can do.

Not a thing in the world. And the sad part is that out of all of these things that is the one that is absolutely true. I can never change what has happened. Never. All I can do is keep my head up and keep going. I'll keep God with me and keep walking.

Hi.. Bye.. :)

HELLOOOOOO!!!
So yerrr.. I just got home from school. Im gonna go shower as soon as Amy gets done in the bathroom.
School was pretty ok today. Boring as always, but what do I have to comlpain abt? I basicall justdid math the whole day. Planning on doing the 1004 test tmr. I also helped Cantena and Carmen plan Cantena's birthday party a little bit. We still cant decide where to have it.
Life goes on as usual. Nothing much going on. Not really anyway. :)
I WENT FOR FUTSAL YESTERDAY WITH THE BESTIES!
Ohh.. ok Amy is out now. SHOWER CALLS!
TOODLES! :P

xoxo ashley:)

Whatcha Say?

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR!!!
Wow.. It's July. Epic.
Celine just reminded me or my DEAD blog that day. So here I am.

So the question is:
Should I create a tumblr?

Im suddenly in the blogging mood again.

xoxo ashley

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